Citation de gloubiboulga07186
I was in love with Rikker, and had been forever. I didn't tell him, though. I mean, this is me we're talking about here. The usual coward. Rikker would have liked to hear it, I'm sure. And I would have liked to hear it back. But me being me, that wasn't going to happen.
He loved me too, I guess. He'd have to, right? Why else would he stay with my cowardly ass, and sneak around like a stalker every time he needed to use the john? In the locker room he ignored me, as I needed him to. And this was my worst sin - when someone made a fag joke, I said nothing at all. That's how I repaid Rikker's nighttime affection during the daylight hours. With my silence.
But at night, we held each other. We whispered and laughed, and we kissed until our lips were bruised. We worked our way through a serious stash of condoms, and then bought more. In the mornings, he stole out of my room before daybreak. That kind of sucked, because I would have liked to wake up next to him.
I just didn't want it badly enough to ask him to stay.
He loved me too, I guess. He'd have to, right? Why else would he stay with my cowardly ass, and sneak around like a stalker every time he needed to use the john? In the locker room he ignored me, as I needed him to. And this was my worst sin - when someone made a fag joke, I said nothing at all. That's how I repaid Rikker's nighttime affection during the daylight hours. With my silence.
But at night, we held each other. We whispered and laughed, and we kissed until our lips were bruised. We worked our way through a serious stash of condoms, and then bought more. In the mornings, he stole out of my room before daybreak. That kind of sucked, because I would have liked to wake up next to him.
I just didn't want it badly enough to ask him to stay.
