But the fact of the matter is that I worry that i'll
believe him too much, that I'll become too easily swayed into believing what I want to believe about him. I don't want to do
what would have done before. I don't want to believe what a person says and ignore what he does. I don't want to see only what I want to see.
I want to be realistic, for once. I want to be grounded. I want to
to make smart decisions.