Maybe Someday, tome 1

« J'ai échoué lamentablement en essayant de ne pas tomber amoureux de toi. »

« Hé, mon cœur. Tu écoutes ? Je te déclare officiellement la guerre. »

I don't want to be harsh in my response, but at the same time, I'm not a girl, so I'm not about to tell her that what she's feeling is normal. Because to me, it's not normal.

Me: You only miss the idea of him. You weren't happy with him even before you found out he was cheating. You were only with him because it was comfortable. You just miss the relationship, but you don't miss Hunter.

She looks up at me and cocks her head, narrowing her eyes in my direction for a few seconds before dropping them back to the computer.
Sydney: How can you say I wasn't happy with him? I was. Until I found out what he was doing, I honestly thought he was the
one.

Me: No. You didn't. You wanted him to be, but that's not how you really felt.

I need you to leave. Please. And if you really care about me, you won't come back.

It's killing me, because nothing and no one could ever fit my life the way I know he could. I feel as though I'm willingly forking over my one chance for an exceptional life, and in re-turn, I'm accepting a mediocre version without Ridge in it.

My sadness is consuming me, and I don't even try to hold it in as I cry huge tears of grief. I'm crying tears over the death of something that never even had the chance to live.
The death of us.

I can literally feel the part of my heart that belongs to her getting fuller. As much as I want it to empty. I'm worried that feelings are the one thing in our lives that we have absolutely no control over.

Our feelings for each other are becoming so much stronger than our desire. Desire is easy to fight.
Especially when the only weapon desire possesses is attraction.
It's not so easy when you're trying to win a war against the heart.

I think the fact that I misjudged him pisses me off more than the fact that he cheated on me. If I can't even accurately judge the people closest to me, then I can't trust anyone. Ever. I hate them for taking that away from me. Now, no matter who comes into my life after this, I'll always be skeptical.

Pour la première fois de ma vie, j’entends absolument tout.